I have learned...

I have learned some things about myself recently. Well, lots of things, but I'll just blog about a few of them.

1. I am a neat freak on the inside- I have figured out that I really enjoy having a clean place to live. I like coming home to a clean place. I like when it smells like bleach. (weird, I know) I love it when the floors have been vaccuumed and they look pretty. And, I really love when the kitchen is clean, and all the dishes are done. That way, when I cook all the things I need are ready to go. So, the last week I have tried something new. I have been picking things up, and washing the dishes after every meal, and taking out the trash. And, I have been vaccuuming every couple of days. I love it. I feel more put together. I feel more like me. I think having a place that is messy makes me nuts!

2. I want to be a mother more than anything- To anyone who is reading this that doesn't know, we are struggling with infertility. We have seen the specialists, and they tell us that the only way we will ever have a baby is through IVF. It costs about 10,000 dollars a session to do that, and there is just no way. I mean, we aren't broke. But we just don't have that kind of money. We are going to continue to try to make a baby the old fashioned way, but I am not going to hold my breath. Chris is more than ready. I have been ready since I was 18. Of course we didn't even think about it until I was 21, but I am 26. Fertility begins to decline in the late 20's. It drives me nuts. I am so tired of all the people around me getting pregnant and having babies. It sucks. So, say a prayer for us. I know that God can make this happen and help us with our dream of having a family.

3. I need to stay busy- Not working has just about driven me off the deep end. Okay, not really, but I sure am ready to get back to work. I start Monday at the caverns, so that's good. I couldn't figure out what my deal was, and it was just that I have been bored. I cannot wait to get my butt out and start contributing to the finances again.

I also registered for school today. It is going to be so expensive! It's going to be worth it, though. I can't wait to start school. Mostly, I am ready to get finished. Well, that's about it for now. I am really, really happy with the way my life is going right now. My marriage is amazing. It's better than it ever has been. We are so, so happy. Okay, I'm rambling. If you got this far, thanks for reading!

Happy tomorrow!