I have learned...

I have learned some things about myself recently. Well, lots of things, but I'll just blog about a few of them.

1. I am a neat freak on the inside- I have figured out that I really enjoy having a clean place to live. I like coming home to a clean place. I like when it smells like bleach. (weird, I know) I love it when the floors have been vaccuumed and they look pretty. And, I really love when the kitchen is clean, and all the dishes are done. That way, when I cook all the things I need are ready to go. So, the last week I have tried something new. I have been picking things up, and washing the dishes after every meal, and taking out the trash. And, I have been vaccuuming every couple of days. I love it. I feel more put together. I feel more like me. I think having a place that is messy makes me nuts!

2. I want to be a mother more than anything- To anyone who is reading this that doesn't know, we are struggling with infertility. We have seen the specialists, and they tell us that the only way we will ever have a baby is through IVF. It costs about 10,000 dollars a session to do that, and there is just no way. I mean, we aren't broke. But we just don't have that kind of money. We are going to continue to try to make a baby the old fashioned way, but I am not going to hold my breath. Chris is more than ready. I have been ready since I was 18. Of course we didn't even think about it until I was 21, but I am 26. Fertility begins to decline in the late 20's. It drives me nuts. I am so tired of all the people around me getting pregnant and having babies. It sucks. So, say a prayer for us. I know that God can make this happen and help us with our dream of having a family.

3. I need to stay busy- Not working has just about driven me off the deep end. Okay, not really, but I sure am ready to get back to work. I start Monday at the caverns, so that's good. I couldn't figure out what my deal was, and it was just that I have been bored. I cannot wait to get my butt out and start contributing to the finances again.

I also registered for school today. It is going to be so expensive! It's going to be worth it, though. I can't wait to start school. Mostly, I am ready to get finished. Well, that's about it for now. I am really, really happy with the way my life is going right now. My marriage is amazing. It's better than it ever has been. We are so, so happy. Okay, I'm rambling. If you got this far, thanks for reading!

Happy tomorrow!

Well, today I went for placement testing at New Mexico State University. It wasn't as bad as I originally thought. I even feel like I did okay on the math, well, for me. Math has never been my strong point. HA! Tomorrow I meet with an advisor to get my test results and register for my classes. I am really looking forward to starting back to real school. Not just internet courses. For those that don't know, I am going to nursing school. I still have to get my nurses aide certificate, and take the ACT test. I am going to wait a little while to take the test because I need to study. I think I would probably get a 5 right now. :)

When I got home from testing, I got a great phone call. The company that runs the gift shop at the caverns called me for a job interview. My friends at home know that working at the caverns is the only place I have wanted to work since I found out we were going to be moving here. So, here's hoping!

Goals

1. Lose 10 pounds by April 11th.

2. Lose 50 pounds by December.

The first goal is two weeks from today. I think that would give me a great jump start. It is realistic. My brother is getting married in December, and I want to be several sizes smaller for that. I have been wanting to lose the rest of my weight, and this is just the motivation I needed. I am pumped, and ready.

So, the way I am going to do this is fairly simple. I am going to eat only foods on my plan, and on a schedule. I am going to exercise 30 minutes a day, 5-6 days per week. I am giving up sugar completely. I haven't had any in about the last week, so I know I can do this. Here is my plan:

BREAKFAST: 1/2 whole wheat english muffin or slice of bread, 1 egg, and protein (turkey bacon, or reduced fat cheese)

SNACK: 1 piece fresh fruit or veggie, lean protein, or popcorn

LUNCH: lean protein, reduced fat cheese, veggie

SNACK: 1 piece fresh fruit or veggie, lean protein, or popcorn

SUPPER: lean protein and veggie

SNACK: sugar-free popcicle

This will be difficult. I know that, and I am okay with that. I also know that I can do it. I am not going to beat myself up for small slip-ups. I am going to do this one day at a time. If I mess up today, I am going to start over tomorrow. One day at a time.

So, does anyone know where you can get a helmet for a dog? Let me explain... We have 2 little dogs. Xena, a dachshund/boston terrier mix, and Expo, a papillon. Now don't get me wrong, they are good dogs. But earlier today Expo completely amazed me with his retardedness. We were on our way to the river to go for a walk, and they were sticking their faces out the window. Expo was in Chris's lap, and he kept climbing higher and higher onto Chris. He got up on his shoulder, and then jumped out the flipping window! Seriously?!?!!!! I cannot believe he was dumb enough to do that! Chris was hanging on to the leash, luckily, so he just dangled from his harness. That dog is lucky to be alive at all. So we were totally freaked out and we just did a short walk and took them home to the safety of the indoors. Then I promptly got myself a diet Dr Pepper. Okay, that's enough of the dogs.

I have a little rant for you... The other day, we went out for fast food. Chris talked me into it, I am not a huge fast food fan. Anyway, we went through the drive through, and we were excited that we were the only people in line. Then the girl asked to take our order. She had to take the order 4 times, literally. Then we pulled around to pay, and she was talking on her cell phone. HER CELL PHONE!! She was talking about some guy she met at a party. In the drive through window. So we pulled up to the next window to get the order and I told the manager. I'm not normally one to do that, but that was just stupid. Then we got home. I took out my order, and it was wrong. Very wrong. So I had to drive back to get them to fix it. Needless to say, I will not be back.

Nothing is new right now. When I have something more exciting happen, I will let you all know! Happy tomorrow!

Friday was interesting. Chris got his new RC truck. I guess it's cool. For a boy's toy. He hadn't stopped talking about it for weeks, so I am glad he has is now. HA! We went around 7 to the river so he could break it in. He got through 2 tanks of gas, and had to stop because it was about to start raining. So, we came home and I cooked some supper. Then, around 9:30 we headed to Hasting's for the midnight release of the DVD. There was supposed to be a party, but it was STUPID! If I didn't want the DVD so bad, I would've gone home and just come back. But they sold out here in about an hour. I couldn't just not have my own copy, so there was just no choice. We got home at about 1, and I don't think we got into bed until after 2. Then Chris got up at 7 am to finish breaking in his toy. I was so tired, but ended up getting up too. Saturday was the first day in months and months that I had taken a nap. It's proof of how old I am getting for sure. I still stand by the fact that it was worth it. I have my DVD and have watched the hours of bonus footage and DVD extras. YAY! Twilight!

Today we are in Odessa. Just for a day trip. I think Chris's parents needed a Chris fix. His Dad sent me an e-mail that said they missed us and that they had presents from when they went to Vegas. HA! They were trying to bribe us. I guess it worked, because here we are. I didn't tell my Mom because she would have a cow that we didn't visit. We will probably head home before too long. We had lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. It was really good. We haven't been there in a while. try their naked tenders sometime. They are amazing. :)

Okay, you know what's annoying? When you send someone a message on Facebook or MySpace, and they never reply. I mean, these are people that I have been friends with for years and years and they have just abandoned me completely. I used to be very good friends with these people. Then I got married and lost touch with a few of them, well, nearly all of them. Then in the last couple of years I have tried to be a better friend and keep in touch, not that it has mattered. I am getting tired of trying. So, I am not going to anymore. Half of my friends don't like me anymore because I am Mormon. That's not going to change.

Anyway, I am out of stuff to talk about today. Talk to you all later, happy tomorrow!

I tried to go to church last night. The activity was supposed to start at 6:30, and when I showed up at 6:20, no one was there. So, I drove around for a few minutes and went back at 6:25. No one was there again. Needless to say, I didn't get to go to church last night. It annoys me...probably more than it should, that no one called me. I mean, yeah, I am new at this particular building, but that doesn't make me any less of a member. At least I don't think it does. And I know they have our numbers because I gave them to the ward secretary and we have gotten a couple of calls before. Okay, I don't suppose there is anything I can do, so I am moving on now.

Is anyone else watching American Idol this season? (yes, I am such a dork!) Awesome! There is this guy on there named Adam Lambert. He is so good! And, he's very cute. HA! He has the kind of talent that should not be undiscovered like he was for such a long time. Okay, enough of that.

New obsession...... Twilight comes out on DVD this Friday at midnight! WOO HOO!!! I already have my copy reserved. I am so ready! As silly as I sound, I absolutely loved the movie. And it's not just because I love the books. This movie is ART. Even Chris watched it in theaters with me 3 or 4 times. I've seen it 5 total, I just can't remember how many he was there for. He even enjoyed the movie. I am more excited for the deleted scenes and other special features than anything.

Okay, that's enough obsessing for now. I'll talk more tomorrow. Happy tomorrow!